Is this thing on?
It seems we were having some technical difficulty. Or perhaps I lost my voice. Or perhaps...
Whatever it was, it is over now.
This morning I woke up singing, "I can feel the breaking of day..."
It could have been the seven and a half hours of uninterrupted sleep I got. (Never underestimate the restorative power of sleep.) But I know in my soul that it was more than that. It was--and is--God, tugging on my heart, telling me that it is time to wake up and get moving.
Not that I haven't been moving. Surely, chasing a fifteen month old around is not sitting still. But its a different kind of movement. It is time to write. It is time to create. It is time to preach. It is time to teach. It is time to engage in the fulness of my vocational identity.
This week marks the last full week I will spend at home with Baby Girl. She will begin daycare next week. I am excited and anxious, but I know that it is necessary for our family. It is necessary for me. Part of being a good mother and wife means being a good woman and minister. However, I know in the depths of my soul that the time home with her was theological education, indeed. For God has used her to teach me so much about the depths of God's love and the nature of humanity (including myself).
I am writing this as she sleeps. Nothing new there, right? What is new is that I am writing this from my brand spanking new Macbook Pro. My old computer died when Baby Girl was three months old. And as much as I wanted a new one, it wasn't time. At the time, finances were the primary reason. With all of the stuff that babies need, buying a new laptop wasn't a high priority. As I look back, it wasn't really about the money. It was more about the timing of it all.
I am reminded by the Preacher in Ecclesiastes that,"He has made everything beautiful in its time" (3:11 NIV).
Beloved, it is my time. Stayed tuned and tell your friends. New things--beautiful things--are on the horizon.